Ok guys, so here it is. This is my last blog for this site. I am all done on it. I updated my pictures, so be sure to check them out. Just the top 3 I added too. And well its now December here and Im getting already for Christmas (in some aspects) and am gonna be moving on with my life soon. Time for some new changes. So I hope you all fare well and have a good holiday season filled with gifts, surprises and memories. All the best and thankyou for the participation with this blog. Yours truly, Michael Lee Simon Schneider.

hey everyone, me here =) anyhow just recently, like the past 3/4 days I have been sick. almost liek the flu but more strep throat wise. fricking me and getting throat infections and viruses. urgh. I tell you, im just sick of being sick. Im working on it right now, but unfortunately with work I havent been able to take time off and stay at home and get better. we are so under staffed it is unbelievable. Anyhow, something to be thankful for is the great weather we have been having out here in Toronto. I mean, excellent. This has got to be the mildest November I can remember or have known in my life.  Mind you Im only 22 and dont remember such weather before the age of 7, but hey come on! lol. Anyways, Ive also came to the conclusion that I am going to end this blog soon. Yup folks, Ive done lots with it and there is just a couple more things I wanted to do with it. But as of the end of this week, Friday (December 1st) That will be my last entry. Im gonna update and reflect and change somethings, but I feel that Ive basically gone as far as I can with this site and man its fairly detailed and large. Im going to take a lot of crap off it before long, so folks if there was anything you were meaning to read or look at, do it soon. I will also update and complete my photo section as well. I just feel like there are other things I can do, other webpages Id like to make and I really need to focus and pay more attention to my Myspace profile. I so lack there..... Anyways, take care and stay tuned this week. Ciao babes. Michael.

So Im on my own alone tonight, so I figure what better time than to clean and start getting some of my christmas decorations up. Its just over a month to Christmas and normally i like having the decorations up at least a month so I can keep adding to them. So I guess I better get started.  Also something else came to my attention I dont have any good pics of me lately to post. So when Cory comes down this weekend, Im going to make sure we take some so I can put them up. When I get my hair all fabulous in December I'll be sure to put those up as well.

 

So newswise, I was jsut reading about Israel giving gay marriage rights to gay people over there. I was quite surprised. This is suppose to be the place in the world where man's kind was started and were our saviour/jesus lived. I bet the Pope is shitting himself eh? lol I think its great that them steeped with all their religion and ways, can resolve to greater happiness by allowing such a measure/act to occur. I think it says volumes for the way things are changing over there. Whether good or bad, it is still change and that is progress, whether or not they change because they are influenced/envious of our western society is neither here nor there. hehe I just wanted to say that.

 

Also, I forgot to mention that last weekend, I went with Alex and his sister and her friend to see the new James Bond movie. Casino Royale. It was a good movie, totally different from what James Bond fans are used to, but overall it was a good action packed movie and a great way to start the franchise. Sorta explains a few lingering thoughts and doubts about James Bond. However it was long at jsut voer 3 hours I believe? Or maybe I was just in the theatre that long! haha. =)

 

Anyways Im gonna keep this one short. Ciao for now. Michael.

 

 

 

uugggghhh. i ache so bad.  I've been going to the gym a fair bit lately, figure since I'm paying for it, I might as well get my ass out there and use it. logical thinking no? anyways, since I've been I sure feel the number its doing on my body. boy am i gaining mucles and using parts of my body i dont normally. i mean my lower back and the back of my legs (calves?) are killing me.  And my boyfriend doesnt like to massage me so... i suffer. lol and speaking of suffering, let me take you down a sad reminisce of my financial burdens and lack of junk food. lol. Do you realize how long it has been since Ive had licorice? my god! Rome was built quicker than the amount of days ive suffered this unfabulous treatment. lol and im to blame, but still! today i could definetely go for some sweet red tasty twirly licorice sticks....... ughhhhh. *drool* But I havent been in a high expense area at the moment lately, and can hardly afford non essential things. work is crap. I hate it there and Ive sorta been weeded out. Cut down on shifts and hours. So Im trying to get some other options going, except not much luck out there. No one gets back to me and I feel as if I am wasting my time. *sighs* I really dont know what I am going to do, I had a job interview at a bank just recently and I went all out and had to get new dress shoes to wear for the interview and I bought this jacket and shirt. Now I returned the jacket after having worn it (i know so tacky and tasteless, but these are desperate measures, i want to look my best) and i basically have to keep the shoes after having worn them and i need good dress shoes anyways, and if I get the job then i can wear these to it. The shirt I kept as well because I can wear it if I get the job and also its a good job interview shirt and I wore it and it smells like my cologne so I doubt they would take it back. hello between my cologne and deodorant, why would they? Anyhow dress expenses aside I also caved and bought total crap today. lol And for Christmas. I have a couple things, but I have a theme I wanted to do this year and since Alex helps me pay half for whatever I buy, I figured I might as well get some things. It will make me happy for time being and this way I can decorate and celebrate at least a bit for christmas. we all know I dont see my family and hardly buy anyone gifts due to lack of money, interest and time. Yet, I think there might be a couple things I can return soon if I dont use them and that then means a bit more money back to me and off the debt. lol Urgh, boy do I really hope I get this bank job. They are suppose to call today if I do, so I am keeping everything crosses hoping so....... =| I just cant and dont want to do the coffee industry anymore.

So I dont know what it is, but I must look like someone. I must. Whom I dunno, but I sure did get a lot of looks today. Sure I dressed my old style self. Dressy clothes and scarves, but nothing that major check me out style. And the final clincher was when I was down in the grocery store picking up a couple of items, the cashier/woman goes "You Shop Here?" Oh thats very nice and smiled at me. And when I was going through the store, a lot of people were looking at me too. Now I dunno, but I thought I was very casual, maybe I have a passing resemblance to someone and with my big scarves and coat and glasses, maybe I look like Im trying to hide. lol

Anyhow, so I was out and about today, sorta checking if there are any places Id like to work at, and I found myself in Canadian Tire checking out all the christmas stuff. And boy am I getting excited! I figure this year, Id like to do my theme in baby blue, dark blue, pink and silver. The odd white here and there, but the majority the 4.

 

And Ive still been on my mission to try and find another job. Im still hoping on getting a banking job, and Im also trying to see if I can work as a receptionist/customer service greeter. Anything to get me out of this house. So the other day I was heading down to get my laundry and I took the elevator which was completely filled with people, all white which I might point out, and so anyhow just as we were heading to our separate locations it stopped in the lobby to pick up this young black guy and when he peered into the elevator and saw all of us, he was like Hell No, and just let the elevator pass and decided to catch a new one. Most of us on the elevator all laughed. It was something completely silly, like what, was he afraid we were going to look at him or something? oh geeze. Anyhow, aside from working being completely not me and stressful and my relationship basically on and off the rocks, I havent been doing too much and dont have anything to report on. My dad had some heart troubles recently that I forgot to mention, but otherwise its just things i want to do to report on.

First off, Id like to go see the musical Wicked before it ends, and also head to the opera to catch the Nut Cracker and Sleeping Beauty. I just love musicals and the opera. Oh how I wish I had the money to be ever more so fabulous. Lately Ive felt like in a rut and definetely havent been my fabulous self. I just need more money and better work. And Im working on it.  For all you people out there saying to do something about it.

Hanging out wise, it hasnt been too much of anything. Mostly Alex and Brad when I need to switch things up. Tonight I will be hanging out with him in fact. Get sometime away from the house and let Alex do his own thing.  I hung out with my friends Doug and Aidan for a bit this weekend with Brad but so far thats been about it. We went out to dinner at Shoeless Joes. Nice place, cute and good food. Total straight sports bar feeling. And I also saw Brad's new place that he purchased to move into (condo) as well as my friend David just purchased a condo for him and his parents to move in for december. So that means, hello housewarming party next year.  Oh and recently I tried meeting and making some new friends but that didnt pan out. The one guy turned out to be a total loser and most of his friends druggies or drug dealers. urgh. what is it with me and finding ever loser on the planet? *shakes head* Anyways boys and girls thats it for now, Michael out.

So folks, here it is, just after 2 years Britney Spears has divorced her trailor trash loser husband Kevin Federline. More like "Underline" with his personality to me. But yes, as of yesterday it has become official. And are many of us surprised? Not really, no. Im surprised B put up with him that long, maybe it took a while before she peeled herself away from her eyes before she finally took notice of the loser she was married to her. But aside from all their public fights with k Fed and Britneys' terrible decisions (both in personal and her kids lives), their marriage was doomed either way. And now poor Britney has a lot of work to do to re-establish her credit and social status. But this is gonna take some time, like now she too is officially trailor trash. like come on? how many of us, have had anything good to say about Brit over at least the past year? And with her spoon feeding and also raising her husband, she has totally lost all fabulous status. I hate to say it, but their relationship was just like if my friends Cory and Elias dated. It would simply and pin pointedly not work. I like to be positive and optimistic, but somethings are just not meant to work, and just like with Cory and Elias, Brit and KFed just dont work.  True, I realize many of you are thinking the same thing with me and Alex, but Im trying. I want to be with him and I believe he wants to be with me, but it is just taking a lot of work and its hard. Alex and I are so different and lately our relationship has just been me trying to solve and fix everything, but Ive realized I really need to think in terms of "We" and "us" than rather jsut me and I. I have to start placing responsibility and things in his area, so it's just not me working on the relationship. And to be honest, right now Im not happy with our relationship and I think everyone, maybe even the Pope knows it. However, I think Alex and I just have to keep working on it, we have to get him to be more communicative and serious with me, and I need to be more aggressive with my personal life outside of just our relationship and work toward future goals. So if I dont want to end up like Brit and Kev with Alex, then we need to reconcile our differences..... Darren if you are reading this, it applies to you too. Take heed from my words. Anyways folks, thats it for now. Ciao! M

So ya I just finished eatting a fabulously tastey cream cheese toasted seasame seed bagel and here I am. So ya today is the Day of the Dead, the day after halloween, or All Hallow's Eve, the day for celebrating the passing and former departures of one's loved ones and friends and family. But Im not here today to talk about that, you want to learn more about it , read last years blog on it. So ya, today is my day off and it seems the only things I am getting accomplished is picking up after my boyfriend. God he frustrates me with how "whirlwind" he is. Urgh. So ya, aside from that I watched Halloween, the Michael Mayers horror movie today then went out and about just to wander and get out of the house. Saw some items and things I really would like to purchase, but no cash and even if I did there are other things it should and needs to go to firstly. And since it is November first, today is officially retails first day for getting ready for Christmas. By the beginning of next week, Christmas will be everywhere. If you dont jump on the bandwagon of starting early you miss out on people. lol So enjoy the next 2 months of Christmas everyone. Im looking forward to it, Christmas always reminds me that we are closing and commenorating (sp?) another year well done. This year will be my first Christmas with Alex and I hope it goes great. I have some lovely ideas I am excited to approach and fulfil. I even already got my first christmas card/invite to a party from my good friends Doug and Aidan.

So yesterday was another longer day at work, and I did go in costume. I went as a pirate, got all dolled up. Lots of compliments too. =) lol And today, some guy approached me downtown and said to me "Hey you, you were dressed up in costume last night right?" Im like ya, he's like I thought I recognized you, you looked good, what was your costume? LOL" So an obvious pickup, but I wonder if he really did see me. Anyways I smiled politely and said I was a pirate and that I saw him too, and smiled and walked away. lol oh god eh? but he did look familiar, but I think it was from the weekend that I/ we had seen each other. Anyways I guess thats about it for now. I have somethings around here to do, so ciao for now, and oh stay tuned for my November/Winter change of my blogspace. Ciao, Michael.

Alright guys so heres whats up.....I am still with crappy ole Second Cup, and I just dont enjoy myself there. Going to try and work mornings and see how that goes, but otherwise there has been no job developments. Ive applied to many a location and searched out many things but nothing..... I just have a few other last resort options then otherwise Im screwed and might just go down to 2 part time jobs. I dunno. Im just not happy with Second Cup, and I dont want to be there. I feel like Im being taken advantaged of and that Im wasting potential. Now for about a month I have been trying almost incessantly to obtain a job working as a tellar for CIBC. My friend Brad works as a manager for them here in Toronto and we've been trying to get me in contact with this Susie woman, who simply put, is just wasting my time. Ive been calling and asking and trying to set an interview and she claims she wants me and to meet me, but no follow up. This woman is simply and utterly no professional enough for me. So.... forget it. Unless they call me, Im done. I hope Brad has been following up and doing his part, but otherwise th is woman is ridiculous. And if she is the one in charge of human resources for hiring, forget it. Im just sick of calling and being like, hi susie, its mike schneider again....(for the 17th time) urgh.

 

next, Ive sorta been considering a job for the airlines, but I didnt realize I dont qualify....#1 reason, I only speak english.... so that being said.... I need/should remaster my french and german and completely nail them down, it doesnt matter if you know just 1 other language, these days you need 2, so 3 in total. just when you thought highschool was over..... next things just havent been solid/good feeling with Alex. I cant explain it, but I feel like he is growing away from me, or rather indifferently distant. (choosing wise) Its hard, but this relationship has been completely different than any Ive been in before and I cant help but wonder and worry about it. so far that difference reason has been my charging forward rod, but now Im apprehensive..... oh well, morning jitters? next, alex is having some of his friends (2) from Port Hope and his sister and her roommate come down for the weekend. I havent got much in the way of doing, except maybe some movies, crave some pumpkins, and eat and chat. Works for my friends, so lets see about his.

 

Im still growing my hair out, pain stakingly slow, but still doing it. Id like to really get some length and switch it up for me there. And it is still dark, so dont worry guys, I havent done anything at all fabulous with it. I'll poste something if I do.  Otherwise thats about it, in a tough financial spot at the moment (need to get better jobs.....) But thats about it. Ciao for now. Michael.

 

 

Alright alright already. Im back. I know I haven't been quite post posting of my blogs lately but thats because I havent had the time. Hell if I cant even get around to folding my laundry, how can I make room to come on here and do blogs? lol Gosh, I mean there is so much stuff Im trying to do lately. Anyhow, so here I am, and today is my day off and let me tell you I think I have the ENTIRE day filled with errands and things to do. I was sorta sad that Alex was gonna be going out with his friends tonight, oh wait thats tomorrow, so that means I have to work my ass off before 5, because tonight is suppose to be date night for us. And I need those nights because who knows when we will get to hang out with each other. With me working 8.5 to 9.5 hour days with an hour travelling both ways on top of it, and then sleeping for at least 8 hours, it barely leaves time for us, with me having to make dinner or one of us not being home.

 

But anyhow, enough of that. Let me talk about some things, that dont concern Alex or I and our relationship. =) So I just finished watching the music video to Call on me, by Eric Prides, and man oh man, is it ever directed to straight men. I guess this guy, doesnt want people to think he is gay with the last name Prides, or also due to the fact of the lyrics of his songs, and how he sounds. lol So anyhow this video, is one guy(him) in this dance/gym/step class, with all these hot little number of women. One from each race, and the majority being white. So anyhow when they start dancing to his song, they are like stripper moves! Sex moves! I mean like totally naughtiness happening here folks! lol I was like, boy I CANT EVEN DO THOSE MOVES AND WOULDNT! haha. I was like the girls are hawt, but hell so sexual! haha. If I was straight i would totally have had a hard on. haha. well..... *wink.... if.  *  

 

So yesterday, I came home from work and I had all these little red patches and marks on me, which I concluded was heat rash and after checking it out on the internet found I was correct. However! get this...... the whole point was to see how I could cure it, and lol boy oh boy, man oh man, I found out everything but! These damn sites! Everything but what you need, a whole system filled with crap. Thats the internet for you my friends, when you need something in a pinch, unfortunately you cant find it and are resorted to searching 10 minutes for it. And the advice it did give me, was crazy! haha. For instance..... "cool off in an air conditioned building for a day or two" {ya, like I have the time to just sit my ass in an airconditioned building for a couple days.... rolls eyes*}, and then "treating heat rash is simple and usually does not require medical assistance." ok...... so what is the treatment? Oh you mean the article is done?! lol like come on. That is like me running a website where I talk about blarney stones, and what they look like and came from, but not of what they do. *sheesh*

 

So now, onto some blog talk..... first note, Congradulations to Cory for finally writing onto one of my blogs and getting his name out there in the mix. =) well done! And secondly Happy birthday to my mother whose birthday was this past week. *Be sure not to choke on your cake bitch, or lose your panties at the bar when you go out and get wasted ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL this week.* cheers!

 

Next, aside from the little enjoyment Alex and I will have tonight of reading Sailor Moon Manga, today is going to be a just clean clean day. I have a couple things I want to buy, but otherwise cleaning. Last night I spilt this full jug of juice I just made, and boy was I upset! I mean talk about frustration and tempertantrum. hehe. And funny thing is, Alex claim not to know what was going on, because he couldn't hear me..... guess in his terms I was pretty tame. lol or else he always thinks Im like that. !!! =0 But ya with all this sorta slacking on the house because of my busyness, it feels as if Im sorta being punished either by work or fate. haha. But seriously I mean, Halloween is coming up and I dont have any time for it. So I just havent even bothered with a costume, and I was either going to be the Joker or Beetlejuice this year. Guess I will have to hold off till next year. oh well, im no stranger to disappointment. hell, remember me talking about my mother? but seriously no, I love her, love her even more if she was in the ground, but still. lol *wicked smile*  So back to my ramblings, my first paycheque comes soon and it goes right fully to rent I think. *sigh* No wonder I dont do anything, either I dont have the time or the money, but I guess you have to suffer for awhile when you are younger and everything so thigns will be better when you get older. but.... I dont recall being Alex's bitch/slave/maid as a part of that agreement..... hmmm. I think I got scapegoated here.......

 

Anyways I got to get my ass going: cleaning and looking for new work still. Second Cup is ok, but I dont think its going to work. Anyways ciao for now. Michael.

So I just got back from seeing the Pet Shop Boys in concert and boys was it good. Well my standards and enjoyment good wise anyways. hehe. I took Alex along with me, and he said he enjoyed himself, but clearly not as much as I did. lol I think he more enjoyed the boys in the concert and the audience. lol Gosh I'll never keep those eyes on me. *wink* But ya, they played many of my favourite songs, except my original fave fave, New York City Boy. And that song is so me. hehe I didnt bring my camera but I have my memory and my mind. Some good beats and nice outfits and lighting. Nothing OMG wow! like a Cher concert, but still worthwhile for me.  Otherwise news interest wise, nothing too major too report. Still working away with Second Cup and might, might have Cory down this weekend to hang out. We'll see. But ya as for that, Im drawing this to a close. Ciao for now. Michael.

So i was just reading online that Cher auctioned 700 of her fabulous pieces of wardrobe recently and made just over 3.5 millions on the articles. Isnt that crazy? I just love it. Anyhow I took a quiz on her outfits to see what the highest bid was people paid for it and where i got 6 out of 10. pretty swell huh? Also on the news note, apparently Elton John has a new cd out and its the good stuff we all liked hearing back in the 70's that made him famous. About time, we dont need him pairing up with rappers and the likes of Eminem. (ick) So actually I just quickly downloaded and listened to some of the songs and ya Im not a huge fan of the cd, but its mellow and definetely like his older stuff. It something I would put on if doing the dishes or cleaning or doing the laundry. not bad, but definetely Elton's style.

 

news wise on me, today I woke up and had a fight with alex and he is off to his parents in port hope, so that means i wont be seeing him this weekend. too bad too,i really want to spend my time with him but things just never work out between the two of us. =( anyways so ya i will be alone this weekend and not doing too much of anything. hopefully gonna hang out with some friends tonight and maybe that will change things. but ya i went for a run this morning, and next i am gonna go swimming then get some milk and go grab a starbucks. i know i work currently at second cup but i want my starbucks today. lol. tazo chai all the way. *sighs* also i might and hopefully try getting a job working at a bank, we'll see how that all goes but ya, so keep your fingers crossed for me. my friend david isnt coming to toronto this weekend, so im not sure exactly whats gonna happen. i intend on cleaning the house and doing some me things, but i woulda like to have went to port hope. oh well. anyhow ya thats about it for now. hope everyone is well and that you all have a happy weekend. cheers. Michael.

 

 So ya thanksgiving is this weekend, and i dont have any plans. Alex will be going home to his parents for the weekend and he seems pretty excited about this. I cant blame him or be jealous, however I do hope he doesnt do drugs or anything like that. But whats that saying Sunny's mom used to say???..... the things we dont want in life, are usually what we are dealt with, its more about finding a way to deal with them.... or rather in this case... cope. =( *sigh* but anyhow, im not sure if I will be working sunday or monday at second cup, but from the sounds of it, it looks like I might be working 1 or both days. I would love to have them both off, but I know retail and with my talent and background, I have a feeling "no". lol =( another sad smiley, but on a brighter note, today I purchased (with my visa.... eeeek) 2 tickets to the Pet Shop Boys concert here in Toronto next week. I hope I dont have to work that night, because I will have to try to get out of it, but otherwise ya Im excited! I hope Alex will go with me, but he isnt much of an 80's fan, let alone the Pet Shop Boys. His sister on the other hand might be a welcoming candidate for me then. If not, Im screwed! lol.  But ya, huge fan of the boys. And speaking of boys, Im hoping David, since he is chinese and all, will come down to Toronto to hang out with me since he doesnt celebrate Thanksgiving. Itd be nice not to be alone again this weekend. No offense to Alex but with his job, I feel like his second wife. So alittle company this weekend could be great. And if I get sunday off, i might just head over to alex's parents for thanksgiving dinner that night.... all depending tho. dont ya just hate that? pending plans?

another also noteable topic is that I might be starting with Alex to collect all the sailor moon tv series on dvd. I have a few on dvd and some on vhs, and alex has them all in japanese on vhs, but Id like to get them instead on dvd and all in english. well the first four seasons anyhow because the fifth season hasnt been translated yet.   hnmmmmm...... news wise, that is about it. Still growing my hair out and still not finished painting this fricking place, but hoping to tackle some of the painting this weekend. Itd be nice to be all complete with the red anyhow. Anyways thats it for now. Ciao. Michael

i just came back from swimming this morning. It was great fun. Wanted to go for a run, but sorta lost my motivation so I thought it might be easier and quicker to just go for a swim instead. Both forms of exercise right?  anyways, not much has been up lately. im just about to get ready to head into work. Yes I finally got a job. Im currently starting off at Second Cup. lol I can hear a few of you laughing and a couple ven stunned, but yes, me Mister Michael has ventured back into the world of Coffee, and this time with Starbucks' main Canadian Rival. (and hey we arent talking about cheap ole Tim Hortons here) Im trying to get everything all sorted out so I can achieve some level of management. Looks like it will be awhile before we see me running my own Second Cup location, but progress is definetely on the plate.

 

So I was just reading on the net about the 10 Amish girls that that one milk man killed in Pennslyvania before killing himself, and it turns out that the Amish believe that in order to move on with life and to live with there life, they must forgive the man who killed their children. As shocking as that was to me, the largest part came when, the families of the slain themselves went to the murder's family and condoled and agrieved them. Isnt that wild? I mean talk about strength and admirability. We can all take something from the amish here. Definetely opens my eyes to them more, and gives more respect for them as a community as well.

 

Also more on the interesting news level, but over in London England, they just opened the very first ice Bar. sure we've all heard of Ice hotels, and castles, but this one takes the cake. Its in the Soho district and apparently costs $22 for a 45 minute visit. Guests entering recieve an insulated cape and wool gloves to help enjoy their visit. More can be seen at this link:

 

 

so im waiting here for alex to get out of the shower this morning and OMG do I ever have to pee. Like totally feel my bladder exploding. lol. So as Im waiting, Im browsing the net and ust realized and found out that Paris Hilton finally has another new music video for her cd, this one is "Nothing in this world". And that is another one that I like.  The video is cute but sorta typical for Paris. However I like her and like the music, so oh well. lol =) Also Im thinking Im gonna do my hair in a mohawk today. I woke up with it in this really funky way and thought ya, why not? Im also hoping to get the bedroom a large portion completed. Since being sick almost all week, I have some things Id really like to get done and done. Im still a bit sick today, yet I feel loads better. So onward to completing my task list.  Also another movie this fall that I am looking forward to seeing is, the new james Bond movie. I was hoping one of the harry potters would be ready, but that still wont be until next year. I tell ya, with waiting for a new movie and the new book, that JK Rowling has my balls in a bunch. lol But ya, big james bond fan here, so hopefully daniel craig does a great job for it. I think with all the pressure on him and the new movie, it will all turn out great in the end. Heck the preview trailer looked mighty good. So thats about it for now. Take care. Michael

 

 

 

 

 

so ya today is a sick day. As usual my poor throat is killing me. urgh. Whenever Im sick, its usually something to deal with my throat or head. urgh =( figures, always the head case. But anyhow in around 7 hours Alex's sister, Katie and her friend are coming over for dinner from me and Alex for her birthday. we're gonna have a cake and he has a gift for her and Im making tacos which is her favourite food. Just unfortunately for me, Im sick today. And anyone who knows me, knows that I cant have company unless my house is in good condition. So that means extra cleaning today, and food preparing and blah. I even wanted to get some more painting in, but I can say that wont be happening. Today anyways. Hell, I couldnt even get off during sex this morning. And that says something. Im always up for it and usually dying for it, so I mustnt be feeling well.  And hell i even tried to go to the steamroom/sauna and sit in there and clear me up a bit but they are working on the showers and pool so i cant go in. figures. on all days.... urgh. the salt water in the pool would have been great help on this poor throat of mine. Anyways I should get going. I'll post my weekend blog later today. Ciao for now. Sick Michael. 

So ya today was my martha swetart day. I baked 2 loaves of pumpkin bread earlier, and then i made this big fancy gormet dinner(for myself because A had to work late) and I also worked on a project/gift for one of my friends as well as cleaning and arranging the house. So overall I think very Martha Stewartish. =) hehe. I even used her recipe book for the loaves. But ya, otherwise aside from a couple errands and me deep cleaning the bathroom, that was about it for today. Trying to get a few of Buffy Season 6 under my belt, but thats about it. Tomorrow I hope to get all my painting done, but I dunno if thats gonna be possible. Depends on whether or not, Alex helps me tonight with the chalk line.  I hope to have everything all set up in the house so when the boys come down they can enjoy it all done, and me too likewise. Anyhow just a quick one tonight. Ciao.

Hey Guys, so today's blog is a question. yes thats right. So I know there are many people out there that read my blogs regularly, and today I encourage you, and ask your opinion for today's question. The other night, Alex and I were discussing how some people view thigns eitehr "black or white", and about the possibility of "grey area". Meaning you either are or you aren't (black/white) or you are in between (grey). Anyhow for this current question the topic is bisexuality. Ok, so the question is "Does A bisexual really exist?" I said that there is no such thing as a true bisexual. Reasons.. it is a soft way to lighten the blow of telling someone you are homosexual (i came out as bisexual before officially being labelled gay) I believe that a bisexual person is a person who doesn't know what they want. So bisexual is society's way of classifying/labelling everything. Either you are a straight person contemplating going gay or living a gay (homosexual to apply as well for the lesbians) lifestyle. I see it that when a guy is with a guy, or a girl is with a girl; you are gay because you are choosing what sex you want to be with, in this case "a same sex choice". Quick insert, I also feel that you are born gay or straight, it is just society's influence on you, or your own decision to live or deny that truth. But anyhow, so now if you are a guy with a girl or girl with a guy, then you are straight. But what happens if you are a person who likes the opposite sex and "relationships" with them, yet chooses to sleep the odd time or two with their same sex?, or else they just like to change things up and have it their way....? aside from being extremely greedy, i feel they are confused. Meaning you haven't decided upon what sex you want to be with.... mmmm.... the saying "Shit or get off the pot" comes to mind... so therefore a bisexual doesn't exist. They either know what they want and just choose to have more *(being greedy or never endingly experimenting.... uh huh *rolls eyes*)* or else they are unsure of their sexuality and are at a deciding point. Its like being male or female, you can't truly be both, you're either male or female. or else you're more of one than the other so that decides the matter. Its also like being dead or pregnant. You either are or you aren't. you cant be sorta dead or sorta pregnant. lol (try telling that one to the kids I grew up with in port colborne! lol) Point saying.....  there is no in-between.  Anyways so thats my thought, and now I ask you if you could please write/respon with your own thoughts and opinions on the matter to me. Please respond on the blog here to this topic and it will address to me. Thanks everyone. Looking forward, It'll be a great help. Michael.