MidnightSolis

Ok guys, so here it is. This is my last blog for this site. I am all done on it. I updated my pictures, so be sure to check them out. Just the top 3 I added too. And well its now December here and Im getting already for Christmas (in some aspects) and am gonna be moving on with my life soon. Time for some new changes. So I hope you all fare well and have a good holiday season filled with gifts, surprises and memories. All the best and thankyou for the participation with this blog. Yours truly, Michael Lee Simon Schneider.

hey everyone, me here =) anyhow just recently, like the past 3/4 days I have been sick. almost liek the flu but more strep throat wise. fricking me and getting throat infections and viruses. urgh. I tell you, im just sick of being sick. Im working on it right now, but unfortunately with work I havent been able to take time off and stay at home and get better. we are so under staffed it is unbelievable. Anyhow, something to be thankful for is the great weather we have been having out here in Toronto. I mean, excellent. This has got to be the mildest November I can remember or have known in my life.  Mind you Im only 22 and dont remember such weather before the age of 7, but hey come on! lol. Anyways, Ive also came to the conclusion that I am going to end this blog soon. Yup folks, Ive done lots with it and there is just a couple more things I wanted to do with it. But as of the end of this week, Friday (December 1st) That will be my last entry. Im gonna update and reflect and change somethings, but I feel that Ive basically gone as far as I can with this site and man its fairly detailed and large. Im going to take a lot of crap off it before long, so folks if there was anything you were meaning to read or look at, do it soon. I will also update and complete my photo section as well. I just feel like there are other things I can do, other webpages Id like to make and I really need to focus and pay more attention to my Myspace profile. I so lack there..... Anyways, take care and stay tuned this week. Ciao babes. Michael.

So Im on my own alone tonight, so I figure what better time than to clean and start getting some of my christmas decorations up. Its just over a month to Christmas and normally i like having the decorations up at least a month so I can keep adding to them. So I guess I better get started.  Also something else came to my attention I dont have any good pics of me lately to post. So when Cory comes down this weekend, Im going to make sure we take some so I can put them up. When I get my hair all fabulous in December I'll be sure to put those up as well.

 

So newswise, I was jsut reading about Israel giving gay marriage rights to gay people over there. I was quite surprised. This is suppose to be the place in the world where man's kind was started and were our saviour/jesus lived. I bet the Pope is shitting himself eh? lol I think its great that them steeped with all their religion and ways, can resolve to greater happiness by allowing such a measure/act to occur. I think it says volumes for the way things are changing over there. Whether good or bad, it is still change and that is progress, whether or not they change because they are influenced/envious of our western society is neither here nor there. hehe I just wanted to say that.

 

Also, I forgot to mention that last weekend, I went with Alex and his sister and her friend to see the new James Bond movie. Casino Royale. It was a good movie, totally different from what James Bond fans are used to, but overall it was a good action packed movie and a great way to start the franchise. Sorta explains a few lingering thoughts and doubts about James Bond. However it was long at jsut voer 3 hours I believe? Or maybe I was just in the theatre that long! haha. =)

 

Anyways Im gonna keep this one short. Ciao for now. Michael.

 

 

 

uugggghhh. i ache so bad.  I've been going to the gym a fair bit lately, figure since I'm paying for it, I might as well get my ass out there and use it. logical thinking no? anyways, since I've been I sure feel the number its doing on my body. boy am i gaining mucles and using parts of my body i dont normally. i mean my lower back and the back of my legs (calves?) are killing me.  And my boyfriend doesnt like to massage me so... i suffer. lol and speaking of suffering, let me take you down a sad reminisce of my financial burdens and lack of junk food. lol. Do you realize how long it has been since Ive had licorice? my god! Rome was built quicker than the amount of days ive suffered this unfabulous treatment. lol and im to blame, but still! today i could definetely go for some sweet red tasty twirly licorice sticks....... ughhhhh. *drool* But I havent been in a high expense area at the moment lately, and can hardly afford non essential things. work is crap. I hate it there and Ive sorta been weeded out. Cut down on shifts and hours. So Im trying to get some other options going, except not much luck out there. No one gets back to me and I feel as if I am wasting my time. *sighs* I really dont know what I am going to do, I had a job interview at a bank just recently and I went all out and had to get new dress shoes to wear for the interview and I bought this jacket and shirt. Now I returned the jacket after having worn it (i know so tacky and tasteless, but these are desperate measures, i want to look my best) and i basically have to keep the shoes after having worn them and i need good dress shoes anyways, and if I get the job then i can wear these to it. The shirt I kept as well because I can wear it if I get the job and also its a good job interview shirt and I wore it and it smells like my cologne so I doubt they would take it back. hello between my cologne and deodorant, why would they? Anyhow dress expenses aside I also caved and bought total crap today. lol And for Christmas. I have a couple things, but I have a theme I wanted to do this year and since Alex helps me pay half for whatever I buy, I figured I might as well get some things. It will make me happy for time being and this way I can decorate and celebrate at least a bit for christmas. we all know I dont see my family and hardly buy anyone gifts due to lack of money, interest and time. Yet, I think there might be a couple things I can return soon if I dont use them and that then means a bit more money back to me and off the debt. lol Urgh, boy do I really hope I get this bank job. They are suppose to call today if I do, so I am keeping everything crosses hoping so....... =| I just cant and dont want to do the coffee industry anymore.

So I dont know what it is, but I must look like someone. I must. Whom I dunno, but I sure did get a lot of looks today. Sure I dressed my old style self. Dressy clothes and scarves, but nothing that major check me out style. And the final clincher was when I was down in the grocery store picking up a couple of items, the cashier/woman goes "You Shop Here?" Oh thats very nice and smiled at me. And when I was going through the store, a lot of people were looking at me too. Now I dunno, but I thought I was very casual, maybe I have a passing resemblance to someone and with my big scarves and coat and glasses, maybe I look like Im trying to hide. lol

Anyhow, so I was out and about today, sorta checking if there are any places Id like to work at, and I found myself in Canadian Tire checking out all the christmas stuff. And boy am I getting excited! I figure this year, Id like to do my theme in baby blue, dark blue, pink and silver. The odd white here and there, but the majority the 4.

 

And Ive still been on my mission to try and find another job. Im still hoping on getting a banking job, and Im also trying to see if I can work as a receptionist/customer service greeter. Anything to get me out of this house. So the other day I was heading down to get my laundry and I took the elevator which was completely filled with people, all white which I might point out, and so anyhow just as we were heading to our separate locations it stopped in the lobby to pick up this young black guy and when he peered into the elevator and saw all of us, he was like Hell No, and just let the elevator pass and decided to catch a new one. Most of us on the elevator all laughed. It was something completely silly, like what, was he afraid we were going to look at him or something? oh geeze. Anyhow, aside from working being completely not me and stressful and my relationship basically on and off the rocks, I havent been doing too much and dont have anything to report on. My dad had some heart troubles recently that I forgot to mention, but otherwise its just things i want to do to report on.

First off, Id like to go see the musical Wicked before it ends, and also head to the opera to catch the Nut Cracker and Sleeping Beauty. I just love musicals and the opera. Oh how I wish I had the money to be ever more so fabulous. Lately Ive felt like in a rut and definetely havent been my fabulous self. I just need more money and better work. And Im working on it.  For all you people out there saying to do something about it.

Hanging out wise, it hasnt been too much of anything. Mostly Alex and Brad when I need to switch things up. Tonight I will be hanging out with him in fact. Get sometime away from the house and let Alex do his own thing.  I hung out with my friends Doug and Aidan for a bit this weekend with Brad but so far thats been about it. We went out to dinner at Shoeless Joes. Nice place, cute and good food. Total straight sports bar feeling. And I also saw Brad's new place that he purchased to move into (condo) as well as my friend David just purchased a condo for him and his parents to move in for december. So that means, hello housewarming party next year.  Oh and recently I tried meeting and making some new friends but that didnt pan out. The one guy turned out to be a total loser and most of his friends druggies or drug dealers. urgh. what is it with me and finding ever loser on the planet? *shakes head* Anyways boys and girls thats it for now, Michael out.

So folks, here it is, just after 2 years Britney Spears has divorced her trailor trash loser husband Kevin Federline. More like "Underline" with his personality to me. But yes, as of yesterday it has become official. And are many of us surprised? Not really, no. Im surprised B put up with him that long, maybe it took a while before she peeled herself away from her eyes before she finally took notice of the loser she was married to her. But aside from all their public fights with k Fed and Britneys' terrible decisions (both in personal and her kids lives), their marriage was doomed either way. And now poor Britney has a lot of work to do to re-establish her credit and social status. But this is gonna take some time, like now she too is officially trailor trash. like come on? how many of us, have had anything good to say about Brit over at least the past year? And with her spoon feeding and also raising her husband, she has totally lost all fabulous status. I hate to say it, but their relationship was just like if my friends Cory and Elias dated. It would simply and pin pointedly not work. I like to be positive and optimistic, but somethings are just not meant to work, and just like with Cory and Elias, Brit and KFed just dont work.  True, I realize many of you are thinking the same thing with me and Alex, but Im trying. I want to be with him and I believe he wants to be with me, but it is just taking a lot of work and its hard. Alex and I are so different and lately our relationship has just been me trying to solve and fix everything, but Ive realized I really need to think in terms of "We" and "us" than rather jsut me and I. I have to start placing responsibility and things in his area, so it's just not me working on the relationship. And to be honest, right now Im not happy with our relationship and I think everyone, maybe even the Pope knows it. However, I think Alex and I just have to keep working on it, we have to get him to be more communicative and serious with me, and I need to be more aggressive with my personal life outside of just our relationship and work toward future goals. So if I dont want to end up like Brit and Kev with Alex, then we need to reconcile our differences..... Darren if you are reading this, it applies to you too. Take heed from my words. Anyways folks, thats it for now. Ciao! M